Monday, March 30, 2015

30 of 30: Day 28

Baby # 3

I was diagnosed with endometriosis a few years back and with the years the pain just got worse. We had decided at the time of diagnosis that we would wait to take any action until we had another child. Well after the big 30 the pain was starting to bother me constantly. So we decided to try for a baby. The next month I got a positive! When I started this challenge I never would of thought I might be pregnant in the near future. 
Pregnancy is very different when you are 30 compaired to 21! I enjoyed every day though. From the joy of first kicks to the terror of a last minute cesarean section. It doesn't always happen how we plan but it's worth it. 
This sweet girl has changed all of our lives in so many ways. Both of our older children were so excited to welcome her in to the world and our family. They are very helpful and have so much love for her. She has brought my husband and I closer also. I love seeing the way he makes her smile every chance he gets and the way her face lights up when she sees him.  I have felt a change in myself as well. She has me wrapped around her finger, as josh says. Although I am barley getting caught up on every day things I have more drive , more goals, more fire. And I know I can get things done! 
Life is a little more hectic with 3 children, especially after a first cesarean section. I fell like I'm being pulled in a few different directions. Somehow though, at the end if the day, we get it all done . Together . 

Our little Lanee Grace has truly been a blessing. 


Sunday, March 29, 2015

30 of 30: Day 27


This year my husband and I have been married for 10 years. That is a long time. A decade. 120 months. 3,650 days. That also means when we were first married we were only 21 and 18. We have been through a lot, 3 homes, 3 kids, addiction , disease, new friends, old friends, family ups and family downs, lots and lots of patience and understanding and most of all , love.

 I can Honestly say I love him more today than I did the day we got married. When things are going wrong or I'm having a panic attack he is the one person I know can bring me back. He always supports me in every little plan or idea I come up with. He never doubts me. He always pushes me to be better. He at the end of the day is my constant.

We have grown up together. A lot of people we went to school with have been married and divorced already. I understand things don't work out but, I am so proud that we never threw in the towel and gave up. We keep pushing through. We are not perfect, we have had our downs in life but we cherish the ups so much we forget the hard times.

The most important thing we have is communication. we always talk! Sometimes we only get a few minutes alone to talk about the day or concerns we have but we make the time. I always know how he is feeling and he always knows what is going through my mind. Not just because of a look or a touch but because we ask. I see a lot of people who don't talk and I causes so many problems.

Second most important thing is the care we have for each other and our family. If one of us is feeling down or under the weather the other will do what ever we can to help. If I'm feeling sick or stressed Josh will take care of the kids or dinner so I can have some time to get my head together. If he comes home from work and had a bad day , from crohn's, ill do what ever I can to make him comfortable ; like take the kids to my moms or make sure were all quietly working on things so he can rest. It might not seem like a lot but it makes all the difference.

Our best advise for a happy marriage and relationship is to always be honest, understanding, and to  think of the other. Secrets, lies, and ignorance get you nowhere. It is so true, Honesty is the best policy. we have to be honest with each other to know how the other feels. Weather it be what's for dinner or how to discipline our children. Then we understand how the other feels and can talk out what our next step will be. when were not together, we still should be. If making plans or decisions, at the end of the day the other person will be with you when you are following through. Bad decision or good. This accounts for all decisions big or small.

In short, were a team. Always cheering for the other and knowing we can count on each other for anything. We have a beautiful life and a beautiful family. I am so lucky to have him by my side for anything, and I know he feels the same. So Love your spouse, talk, understand, be with them every day you can. In the end you wont regret it.